Monday Monday ... was yesterday.

LOL So I started writing in my blog yesterday and... well I got distracted and that didn't happen.

So today is Tuesday! Woohoo! And yesterday and today I have had two cups of coffee and am bouncy! I should drink it more often, but perhaps then it wouldn't have quite the same effect. Yesterday once I got going I was able to get a lot accomplished... well a lot for me anyways. I cleaned Paul's bathroom! (all of it and not just wiping down things but like scrubbing and the floors and the trash and EVERYTHING! Even the floormat got put in the wash!) I also did the dishes! yay but I do those everyday so no surprise there. Then I did some laundry and took out all the trash! It had been accumulating in our garage and needed to be put in the dumpster, with all the rain/snow we had gotten I just didn't want to go out and get all wet. So yesterday was perfect so I went ahead and did it! Thank goodness I did it yesterday cause today is crappy again! I love the rain, I really do but I think I like Washington rain better than Wisconsin rain. Here it seems like I am always stepping into puddles or something and I really hate having wet pants, but I almost always have wet pant legs. :( Out in Washington it was rainy or drizzly... but it wasn't so bad, only thing I could complain about there was that I needed something to keep my glasses from being completely useless outside. Eh *shrug* there are positives about each place and of course the negatives so I will live here and be happy with it! :)

Not sure if I blogged about my toe a few weeks ago or not... but I had an ingrown toenail removed a few weeks ago and the doctor yesterday said it looks great and I only need to come back in if it is causing me trouble! woot! My toe is like a complete blog entry... this was the third time I had the procedure done and this time I think it's the last. Already looking and feeling better!

So I have decided a few things in regards to baby stuff... some resolutions one might say for modifying my thoughts and behaviors about it. First I am going to try to not think and worry about it as much as I have been. I don't think it's healthy for me to obsess over it, and if the thoughts do come flowing in, as they are known to do, then I will just move past them, through them onto another subject. The biggest thought lately is that I feel like I should have been able to stop the loss from occurring, like I should have done something differently. And boy do I know how unproductive that thought process can be.

So last night before going to bed, and probably every other night before going to bed, I made it a point to 1. pray the lord's prayer... which almost always helps sooth me, and 2. to pray for patience and trust in God's promises. I know that I am here to live my life, to not sit around in self pity and grief, so I am going to work on remembering that. I have a job to do, I am a wife to my husband, the caretaker of my household no matter how many people or pets or whatever are in it. So I will do my job, my calling as one might say. Yes my heart yearns for children, but perhaps that yearning comes from a desire to take care of people and to provide for someone or something that needs me. So I will focus on my husband (who definitely needs me to take care of him) and my cat (who also most definitely needs me) and then my friends and family, and will do what I can do for others.

In quilting news I have a few things that I would like to share... back a little while ago I made a block for Moda for a "just one star" program and they sent me this week a little charm pack of 2.5" squares, so cute! I love them! I can't wait to make some little thing, maybe a matching set of coasters or something. We don't have any nice coasters so those would be fun to make.

I have been doing a few swaps... one of them was an I-spy fabric swap. I got my fabric sent off and will be getting new fabric a little after May 1st, so within a couple of weeks. She's also doing a giveaway for those who sent in fabric so we'll see if I win any of that. :)

I did a mug rug swap... still need to send out the mug rug and will post a picture as soon as I load them on the computer. I really like it and it will be hard to giveaway, but that's ok.

I am also participating in a folded hexagon swap, I will post pictures once I do my first one as well.

Then when I can I am working on quilting Paul's quilt. I have almost three whole circle places done... and will be working on the fourth soon... but that only covers like... a 3 ft by 3 ft section of the quilt... still much left to be quilted! Soon!

And then the hexie flowers, which I have put together the groupings but haven't made a flower in a few weeks, will get back to doing that soon here.

Today I have distracted myself with doing stuff on Pinterest which... if you haven't seen is quite addicting once you start doing it. If anyone would like a invite just let me know, there's a waiting list unless you know someone already on it. Here's my page of pinterest stuff. :)

That's all for now, talk to everyone later!

Feeling Whiny today!

Today my head hurts, and I feel achy all over. I don't know if it's just I slept badly maybe... or something. :( Oh and I am sooo sleepy, I feel a nap coming soon... very soon. As I write this post my eyes are closing, they are ready for some shut eye times. The other day I took a nap and it was soo hard to wake up after my two hour nap.

So last week was the 4 month anniversary of our loss... anniversary seems too celebratory for it, but I don't know what else would work... memorial? Some days I really can't believe it's been that long, and others it seems like just yesterday. We are now less than 3 weeks from when we had been due, May 3rd, 2011. Instead of feeling like a blimp like I would have been if I was still pregnant, I am losing weight and so is Paul, we are looking towards the future, knowing that we will do all that we can do to get pregnant soon. The other day we watched a Star Trek Deep Space 9 episode where someone was having morning sickness. Paul nudged me and said "We are going to make you sick soon." *smile* such a sweet way of saying things. Soon I will be physically miserable but emotionally elated and sooo happy.

Right now I just want to be past the next few hurdles... a few months down the road would be good. Although we do keep ourselves fairly busy these days, we see our good friends Nathan and Katie at least once a week if we can manage it. And we see my mother in law and her husband once a week when they are in town. At the end of this month a friend and his girlfriend are coming up for a day or two to visit. Soon our friends down in seminary will be finding out where they are being called, and we will know if they will be close enough to visit often or not. I hope they are. I am also kind of looking for a job, I think being busy might be a good thing... but we will see what I end up doing.

Quilting has kept me busy as well. Last night I worked on Paul's quilt... I think I need to just make it a goal to do a set of circles a night until I get it done, otherwise it will hang over my head... I just want to get it quilted and bound and on our bed! I have some mini projects I am working on... the flowers that I have been posting as well as a few swaps that I decided to do. One is a mug rug swap, I am pretty sure I have decided exactly what I am doing for that one... a paper piecing method that uses an Iris folding pattern. I am hoping it will give me the desired effect, I think it will end up looking like a blue flower, or so I hope it does. And then I want to do some green leaves and a bright cheerful yellow background. I will post pictures once I have it done.

I guess I should go back to getting stuff done... or trying to. Laundry is behind, dishes need to be done, trash -needs- to be taken out, and I need to make some phone calls and send some emails. The to do list never seems to get smaller... ever. :( Oh well. I did get taxes done yesterday so that can be removed from my "to do" wall! :) exciting.

Have a great day! and hopefully you each have some good weather to enjoy!

How about a non-giveaway update... are you ready?!

First things first... my goddaughter Zoe Anastasia was born yesterday evening, she is beautiful! I truly can't wait to get to know her, to see what little person she grows into. Her sister is quite the little girl, and I am sure will teach Zoe many many lessons over the next few years. I am also excited to see how my future children work into this mix of Zoe and Alia, as well as the future brothers and sisters of these two. It's exciting times when your friends start having kids, especially when you are hoping to have one soonish to join in all the fun. :)

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Second while we are talking about kids... figure I should update folks on what's happening with us... well last you guys knew, we were waiting for insurance stuff to settle down. Well I am proud to announce that we recieved a notice from the insurance not too long ago that they are paying for the hospital stay. We have a few more bills that we are waiting to hear back from but that is great great great news!!!! If they are willing to pay off that $5,000 bill then the other $3,275 shouldn't be a problem.. right? Thankfully we had already hit our deductible so now it's just... waiting times. So once all that is done then we will be ready to try officially to have our own little child again. :)

Well it's bed time so for now that's all you get! :) Nighty night!

A little bit of this and a little bit of that

So... the 24th I left to go to VA to visit with family. It was a great trip! I don't think I will go into details so much as to just say that I love every one in my family and really wish this country were smaller. My nephew Lukas is the cutest thing in the world, and I wish I could be with him all the time. He learns so quickly and it's so fun to watch him explore the world.

I came back from my trip on Wednesday the 1st. It has been a rough few days, have been on an emotional roller coaster, crying here and there for reasons and non-reasons. I think my emotions have calmed down a bit, although I am still tired so you never know when they will erupt again. Last night we picked up two friends from the airport, they flew in from Chicago to spend time with us, I am enjoying their company. Last night we went to this awesome diner! and I just have to say that Dave's Diner in Seatac is wonderful, I will hopefully be taking people there for many times in the future. I hope! Today we started the day with breakfast made by me... homefries, sausage and toast (I took my potatoes and sausage and made breakfast burritos, the rest of the folks just ate them the way they were). After breakfast we climbed into a car, 5 adults, so we had three people in the back and me driving and another person in the passenger seat... made for a long ride, but we made it to our destination... MT. ST. HELENS! :) It was awesome! I would go many many more times if people felt so inclined. I will post pictures later. We have been trying to stay cool the last 5 hours of being home... so far it's kind of working. We have been playing Settlers of Catan and have had a great time. Now they are out on a walk, I chose to stay home to enjoy some quiet for a little bit. And to catch up on some emailing and stuff. Not sure what we are doing tomorrow... I know there's breakfast in the park and then there's a parade so we might do those things.

I am trying to also catch up on my blog reading... I have been trying while on vacation last week too... gosh it's hard. :) I will eventually, also need to do some cleaning, will do that Monday or Sunday night. Hope everyone is good. And wanted to let you know I am good too. :) Bye!

The beginning

I love when you first start a blog... and you think, "Oh yes this is the one that I will update forever and ever." Well sometimes that doesn't happen.

I hope to not let that happen with me, but sometimes that's the way it is. I have a myspace, and a livejournal and they haven't been updated for a bit.

Well a life update real quick... my sister got married and is now going to have a baby, they also moved to Montana. My parents came to Wisconsin for a week for the first time in the three years that I have lived here. I still work for Roundy's, but I have moved to a new position of building the ads as of Tuesday. :) I am very excited about this.

My favorite things to do while on vacation are miniature golf and shopping/window shopping. I learned that this week while my parents were here. I do not so much enjoy the hiking and walking up towers, though I do enjoy the view once I get up there. I enjoy walking when it isn't humid and hot outside. My least favorite thing is the sweating and yuckiness that goes with those walks outside when it is icky out.