Sunday, May 17, 2009

There's a reason to not go outside and play...

I am extremely tired after doing so.

Update for the last two days....

Yesterday Paul ended up not working (woohoo!). Mark and Kelly came over at like 11 ish and we had lunch with them at this little place called The Good Lunch. Boy was that some good food... :) And pie too! Chocolate silk pie... it was sooo yummy. After lunch we drove downtown and were going to do some window shopping, we went into a sports shop, "Willie's Sports Shop" and bought us a basketball and some golfballs and a frisbee. The guy in the shop was soooo nice, I think if I can help it I will try to go there for sporting goods stuff. We would like to buy some tennis rackets and balls, so perhaps we can get them there. I love supporting small business's. After the shop, we decided to go to the basketball court and play some good ol' H-O-R-S-E :) Order of shooting ended up going Mark, Kelly, Cassie and Paul. Paul won... lol probably because he got to go after the girls and we were not doing that great. He didn't get any letters... sadness. After that, Kelly and Mark had to go because of other plans, so Paul and I played a little one on one and he won... :) Then came back inside and were tired the rest of the night... too much fresh air I think. :)

Today we went to church as usual, had a good sermon on God's love... now that I am actually thinking back it's hard to actually remember the details, probably cause I am soooo tired... anyways, it was good and it got me thinking... but now I don't remember. After church we had made plans to meet up with Mark and Kelly, Paul was going to play 9 holes with Mark at the golf place. So Kelly and I got lunch at Taco Del Mar, and then picked up some meds for Katie (my sister in law has been sick). We went to Katie's and got there in time to see Dave leave to go hit some balls at the golf range. So the afternoon was mostly Katie, Kelly and myself. Very nice, got to just talk about things, families, husbands and other things. Mark and Paul came back from golfing around 4ish, Dave came home not too long after that. We stayed at Dave and Katie's for a little bit of time, we didn't want to overstay and cause them to have to say "Can you go now, this is too much hanging out and feeling more social than it should because of the disassociating thing". So we stayed for like half an hour at the most, then went off to our home. It was nice to see Katie, Dave and Paul in the same room, even if it was for a short time. They make Paul so happy... every wife wants to see her husband happy... so it made me happy for him to be so happy.

This evening has been spent just playing wow, went to get dinner at Burgerville :) yummy burgers and strawberry lemonade. :) I also was able to plant my tomato plants outside, I think the last frost has come, so I think my plants will survive. I read online to do the moving near the evening so as not to shock your plants... give them time to rest at night. I am nervous.

Oh one other thing was that I was able to talk to Kelly for awhile about everything... about meeting my father in law, about the sisters disassociating (everytime I say to her or someone else who's a witness that they are not talking to Paul... they get defensive and are like "Well, no, it's not that we won't talk to him, if we see him in person we will be nice, just we aren't going to hang out with him or have dinner with him or anything", so basically nothing personal). I can't seem to control my frustration with this... I mean I control it around everyone, but I just feel like screaming most of the time... especially when I let myself think about it for too long. So I try not to think about it... but like right now... if I had a good place for screaming... I would scream things like "How can they just pretend like nothing is going on, how can they just go on like there isn't this huge gaping hole in the middle of their family! How can this be happening! Why can't they see the truth of what is written in the scriptures! Why are they following so blindly!" The other thing about this whole situation... is that Paul's mom said today that this wouldn't be happening if only Paul would change. This would mean that Paul would have to go back to being a witness, go back to the teachings that he finds incredibly wrong and against scripture, go against the beliefs he currently holds... to reunite his family. I think it's interesting that after Paul has explained his reasonings for leaving that his mom still thinks that he might change his mind, that he might re-re-read scripture and come to the thinking he used to have... Most people once falling off a cliff accidentally do not jump off the cliff willingly...

*sigh* sorry it's a rant and I should go to bed... cause as mentioned before... tired. I think I mentioned that. It's because of all the out of the apartment stuff... the running around.

Tomorrow I have quilting in the morning (yay for not being sick and being able to go to quiliting!), and then should go to the grocery store... I don't know what I need there... oh yeah Milk, and after that I guess do the dishes (might do them in the morning before quilting). I also have a quilt project I am working on, it's a surprise for my sister. Can't talk about it much on here cause she might read this... not sure if she does or doesn't on a regular basis. After I give it to her I can share pictures. :)

Anyways, off to bed. sleepy!!!!

3 comments:

Lukey's Mommy said...

:) Awww Cassie! Of course I read your blog. I usually have to read 5 at a time to catch up, but I read them all! I like what you said about the cliff-- good analogy. I am so glad that Paul is standing on solid ground in his faith, and is not going to be tossed back and forth like an infant in the waves. Keep it in prayer, like you are, and I know that something will happen, in God's timing. God has this awesome way of doing it in his perfect timing.. and it is so frustrating when we can't see the whole picture. Like, "Daddy move! Lemme see what you're doing!!!" :) Anyway I love you Cassie... be strong.

Roxie said...

Me too! Sorry for not reading your blogs more faithfully. I will get better! Love you.

Cassie said...

Thanks Katie and mom. :) It's nice that eventually you do read the blog. I like for you guys to know what is happening in my life.