I know it's pointless to wish for something you don't have because it would sometimes change your life drastically. Like for example... I wish I didn't have people related to me who were Jehovah's Witness. But if they weren't related to me then I wouldn't be married to Paul and I wouldn't be a Lutheran.
*sigh* I love my relatives... I wish I were better at being able to defend my beliefs. I know what I believe but I am horrible at defending it. Which then I have to question, do I really "know" what I believe if I can't even defend it.
Eh, I just had a conversation with my sister in law about the Trinity... why would I go and do that with a Jehovah's Witness... *sigh* it's the one thing she says she won't ever be able to understand and I wish I knew how to explain it without sounding like I have no clue what I believe. After that conversation though I do feel like I have no clue what I believe. I wish I could be like Matrix style and just plug into some kind of manual on the Bible and just know where things were written. Although I am pretty good at learning things, maybe I just need to study the bible more. It would definitely help things to be able to go "Oh it says here in John..."
Does anyone know of any good resources for me? I think I will ask my pastor tomorrow if there's anything in the church library that can be used. I really do hate not knowing how to defend the Trinity belief.
The other thing is I wish that I felt more comfortable with expressing why this whole shunning thing is wrong. or why their interpretation of scriptures here is wrong. Oh I wish for a scholarly Bible brain.
Onto other topics... I have a job come October 5th... I will be babysitting Paul's cousin, Phoenix Michelle is her name. I think I will call her Little Bird Girl. Her grandma already calls her Little Bird... so yes that might be my name for her. She will be 5 months old... I think, born May 19thish.
I also got a sewing machine last week from church. A lady in the congregation passed away and her kids didn't want her machines, she had three of them. Two are still at the church, I got the middle one as far as age goes. It's a Singer model 401A, it was made in the 50's and 60's. I found a manual for it online that I can print off or save. Now if something happens to a machine I won't feel like I broke someone else's machine.
Mmm I don't really know what else to say, I am working on my mom's quilt, I did that quilt along where I got that quilt top made, but I feel like it isn't wide enough. So i am making more strips and going to cut more blocks and will add two more rows. Then I am going to cut more blocks and make a blocked backing out of the extra blocks and some other fabric I have. I need to do the two baby quilts that I have on my list, those two babies are getting closer to their due dates.
Wow I am hot today, not nearly as hot as I was last week, but still hot.
Well I have to run downstairs and get the mail and pay the rent, so I am going to go...
Talk to you later.