I wrote more and then erased it... who knows why.
I am so tired yet every time I am faced with the darkness of the room and the quiet of my thoughts I am also facing the loss and grief, especially the night before Mother's day.
I really hope all my friends and family out there who are mothers (of all kinds) have a great Mother's day. I am going to try my hardest to do that myself. Not sure yet what we are going to do... I know that I will be running a 5k tomorrow to see how fast I can do it.
I don't know, I suppose now that my eyes are sufficiently tired from crying that I should try going to bed. They now especially don't want to stay open... that's a good sign.