Saturday, May 12, 2012

Why is it so hard?

I wrote more and then erased it... who knows why.

I am so tired yet every time I am faced with the darkness of the room and the quiet of my thoughts I am also facing the loss and grief, especially the night before Mother's day.

I really hope all my friends and family out there who are mothers (of all kinds) have a great Mother's day. I am going to try my hardest to do that myself.  Not sure yet what we are going to do... I know that I will be running a 5k tomorrow to see how fast I can do it.

I don't know, I suppose now that my eyes are sufficiently tired from crying that I should try going to bed.  They now especially don't want to stay open... that's a good sign.