The other thing... pain pills are nice, took a wonderful pill tonight and it's already making me nice and drowsy. Thank you! I really hate going to sleep sometimes, especially when you are still kind of awake but you know you should sleep. Laying down at that point only gives you more time to think about things, more times to cry about your losses, your babies that aren't in your arms or still in your belly. The other thing about being this tired and drowsy with the pills is that your eyes don't have the energy to cry... which is nice.
I don't know how to grieve this time... perhaps no one really knows how to you just do. I just want to get through a pregnancy, to have a baby and to love the baby, teach the baby and watch my baby turn into a grown person. I hope we don't have any issues in the future. Praying praying praying.
Anyways, night night world.